How did your Restoration Journey begin? What brought you to RMI Fidelma?
I was led to RMI when I was sent by my former husband back to my home country with the intention of us being permanently separated. To top it off, I was also facing a legal battle. I was soo broken, desperate, and bankrupt. Even before I was sent back home, I already knew that only God can heal our marriage. I went to the church and ask for help but the priest couldn't do anything but pray for me. When I was back in my home country, I was so depressed and quickly searched for a solution that would restore my marriage. I browsed online -- I think it was RMI that I first found, but I was involved in another ministry. However, I was even more hurting and felt rejected.. I was soo obsessed with my FH and wanted an easy and quick restoration of my marriage. I was always begging him and was crying day and night. Until the Lord touched my heart and led me back to RMI. When I started reading the book "How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage", I couldn't put it down and I was drowning with my tears. It speaks to my heart and woke me up from my sins and biggest part in tearing down my marriage. It was then, that the scales of my eyes fell off. I was slowly on my journey to healing.
What has RMI and/or Encouraging Woman done and what has it meant to you?
Although I was backsliding for so many years, each time I go back to read RMI resources, I always had peace and encouragement. The resources always speak to my heart in whatever season I was in.
How have you, and how has your life changed since learning of the promises and applying the principles from RMI?
Since I found RMI, I learned to tithe, give, and seek God in all circumstances. I have always been stubborn and have been the so-called empowered woman. But when I found RMI, I have learned a different kind of power in a woman. I am now seeking peace in troubles and accepting that God is always in control.
Why are you interested in becoming a Minister?
Writing this bio is kind of God's timing in this season of my life. I have been worried and afraid lately, and then realized that I have been obsessed with the world. I have been obsessed with the thought of marriage restoration and I have been preoccupied with the thoughts of me getting restored to my FH. I have been so shallow in my walk with God. I haven't been putting the principles in my heart. I have been so shallow. God led me to read "Hind's Feet on High Places" and "Prison to Praise". I sure did read the hind's feet book before, but it never touched my heart until this time. I realized been soo obsessed with my own restoration that I didn't care to share the Good News. I have been so vain and obsessed with the happenings of the world. Indeed, I have been lukewarm Christian.
The Lord has put it in my heart the verse in Matt. 4:4 "He answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” Whatever happened to me now is because I have always been living on bread alone. I am crying as I'm writing this because I have wasted years to realize this. I have not been faithful to my tasks in RMI. I always said I want to help but I feel like I've abandoned so many tasks that will be used to minister to hurting women. And now, I don't know how to start over again. I honestly don't know how to minister but I just want to walk and pursue Him and share the journey with other ladies.
Who is FIRST in your life? How did this come about?
My Husband is what I've been thinking about and want to pursue. This just happens lately when I was faced with fears, worries, and exhaustion. I realized I haven't really let go of the world. The world was still my no. 1. And, although I'm still on the process of having the Lord as my no.1, my Heavenly Husband, and my Saviour, I am doing it step by step looking straight to my Husband.
Are you currently "seeking" restoration for your own marriage? WHY or why not?
No. Although there are times that I still think of my FH, my heart hurts each time I remember how I made my HH the least priority of my life. I am seeking restoration with my Beloved Heavenly Husband.
Which resources helped you the most? Which are your favorites?
How God Can and Will Restore Your Marriage (in English and in Tagalog) is the starting point when the scales of my eyes fell off. The Encourager every day and the praises in the blog and all the books in RMI are so helpful in guiding how I live my life.
What would you like to say to a woman who is reading your BIO, helping to encourage her:
Dear Beautiful Brides,
You must have been here because you are broken and hurting just like I once was. Please take to heart everything that RMI is teaching. Follow the courses and you will be surprised how your life will change for the better. Each story is different and we may not have the same story but the Lord, your Heavenly Husband, is always the same. Just focus on Him.